I'll try to make this as brief as possible -- no one likes to read a wall of text.

My background:
Married for 18 years to an abusive (physical/emotional/mental) alcoholic. Ran away almost 17 years ago.

Lived alone for 15 years -- I am an introvert and enjoy my alone time.

Met current hubby online (I was in the States / he in Canada) -- had ongoing chats/Skype for a year. Met in person 2 years ago. 2 more meetings, then married this past April.

I knew, from the beginning, that he drank. But he is so charming, affectionate, loving -- mostly spoils me rotten -- and it wasn't a problem for me.

He is a tormentor (teasingly) and is the same with his friends/co-workers who love him dearly. I've always laughed when he teases me, we'd have such fun together and him keeping me laughing is important to me.

He is semi-retired and was home for 5 days straight last week. By the end of the 3rd day, I was a wreck. He'd stayed drunk nearly the entire time. He even got surly with me over trivial matters.

I'm feeling like I did when I was with my ex -- anxious/fear/dread/nerves strung tight.
Although I know for a fact he would NEVER raise a hand to me, I can't help having those old feelings.

So, I'm asking myself -- am I reacting to old triggers? Or is it the fact that I had no alone time/relief from him for those 5 days?

He totally retires the end of January so I must learn to cope somehow or I will go insane!

Any feedback is appreciated. Thank you for reading this.