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Originally Posted by VMblue
I don’t know how to cry for myself. Sounds strange, I know. I can cry for the pain of other people, movies and even books. But I don’t know how to cry for my own pain.
I just don’t know how to get the pain I feel out of my chest. I want to. Days on end I feel like crawling up in a ball and cry. But the tears never come. People can hurt me as badly as they want, and the best I can do is stinging eyes.
I read of other people crying themselves to sleep. Spending hours letting the emotions out. It is even advised as a relief and coping mechanism. And I don’t know how.
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Sometimes, when I couldn't cry, and I wanted to stop thinking about things, I would get stupid drunk, and of course alcohol is a depressent so after a while all those thoughts would come back, and I'd end up having a full on break down, sometimes infront of people. It's not a healthy way to do it but I did feel a bit better (and hungover) afterwards.