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Originally Posted by Mefisto
Thank you for the input. Recently i saw my mother in her room, she was sitting on her kness, loudly crying and holding the christian icon, praying for the cure of her sons depression. That was a heavy feeling. I apologized to her for being such a failure son. She said that i put myself in so strong depression that i probably wont be able to escape from it without medication. She offered to start taking zoloft once again. I really don't want to do that. The side effects were truly awful. And there was not much positive effect either. But she is probably right that i wont be able to escape from this condition all by myself. I don't trust SSRI pills anymore. Don't know what to do.
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Hi Mefisto,
I'm going to suggest a way for you to think about your situation. As painful as it is for you now, I think that there may be a big hidden important opportunity for you here.
You have described what happened with your ex-girlfriend and your ex-friend. You have explained how you feel about it. I really understand this and I think that many people can get where you're coming from. It's probably quite true that every time you think of these two people, you have horrible feelings and, so, it is quite natural to think that these two people and what happened is the CAUSE of your feelings. Now, I believe your description and I suspect that you have thought through the whole story in great detail, right? What I want to suggest is that if you did this once and had horrible feelings once, it would not really be a problem. The real problem is that these thoughts and feeling keep re-occurring again and again and again and again and again and again, seemingly no matter what you do. In fact, I think that the fundamental problem doesn't even have anything to do with your two ex-friends or with your particular thoughts and feelings about what happened. I think that your fundamental problem is that thoughts and feelings in general come to you in an uncontrolled unconscious manner. This, I believe is very close to the true core mechanism of depression. Have a look at this and see if it makes sense to you
http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...n-escaped.html
There is an easy suggestion about what to do about it which is simple to try and is even fun. It really works too. This really worked wonders for me and you'll see in the thread that this makes sense to others also.
If you handle things right, I think you might be able to use your experience to break the spell and escape from depression into a wonderful new life!
- vital