I am turning 40 on jan 2 and it is killing me inside to think that I am 40 yrs old .I can't really seem to accept it. I have postpartum depression and everything seems bleak.i did not keep up with my career even though i'm highly educated and was someone who held an important position. I quit my job. I feel like a complete failure, turning 40 with depression and no job. Does 40 mean entering mid life and it is terrifying to think that I may never have the dream life I envisioned. How do I deal with my birthday?? I'm crying nonstop thinking about it.