Thanks for the replies. I've become so awfully depressed. I haven't had any interest in putting up my Christmas tree. I'm neglecting other things. I feel like I can't pull myself out of this.

I'm taking extra doses of my antidepressant. I'm just desperate to feel normal. At times I wish I was dead, thinking I have nothing to look forward to in life. I'm at my s/o's place now, feeling a little comforted to be with him. He's being nice. I'm so hurt by his daughter I can't seem to get over it.

My plan is to take some amitriptyline every 4 hours, hoping it will give me a lift. I haven't felt like this in a very long time. It's just awful, but there is no explaining that to anyone.