GUY

go to the ER and tell them u are in mental Crisis

u are in the hospital ........your job is safe.......medical need ...hospital has u covered they will have paperwork out the yin yang for u to show the boss

really man u are this bad it is going to cost u that much and still have stress about it ........that is what the ER is for
i am personally thinking about going myself for some of the same issuse i just hate to mess up my family x-mas worrying about me is what is stopping me

Just go man it will solve the problems at hand and give u 48 72 hours to get head on strait and feeling better