I don't really have regrets about anything I found out. I wish I would have been able to wait for her to tell me things at her pace. I looked her up mostly in the beginning. I wanted to know how she is so I didn't have to waste emotions on someone I thought would only hurt me.

But the one thing I feel guilty about is having pictures of her and her family. I hate her professional picture. It doesn't look like her anymore. And she won't give me a picture because she never takes solo pictures. So I keep the ones I found so I can remember what she looks like (I can't remember anyone's face on my own ).