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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom
1 it looks like i am never going to have a job in the herbal field like i wanted...that was my last hope Why?
2 money is getting tight most of it went to bail and lawyer fees ....i applied for SSI well they called today the forms i sent in never got there and the place that did the original work up on me has deleted those records so ....odds of them saying yes are near 0 So what do you need to do for SSI now?
3 the sleep meds they gave are good for nothing 5 hours of laying in bed staring into the darkness watch the lights and shadows form stuff (like clouds) and i even doubled the dose after the 3rd hour ....finally fell asleep at 7 this morning still 2 hours wake up Can you call your dr and tell them you threw up blood and your not sleeping?
4 x-mas is going to be horrible i currently have 1500 that is for food bills gas life so i can not get anyone anything ..........i have already told them and that i want nothing for myself The Dollar tree has nice things for gifts if you know they'll get you something anyway.
5 court is the day before my mothers b-day/death day ......and it is not even the trail it just meeting i have to be at that is a whole tank of gas to get there and back I'm sorry about your mom. Is there public transportation? where you able to get a change of venue?
7 the anger in me is growing .....with no medical herbs in me to calm me down repress it and the pills they gave me 300mgs a day is not even the lvl it needs to be to work 900mg to 1400mg ....and to increase means 3 weeks while the anger grows Are you in therapy? is there any healthy outlets you can use for your anger?
8 i have a total of 53 days to get strait so i can handle sitting in court with out freaking out and jabbing the pencil in the side of my neck to open up the veins behide the ears so i am dead with in 21 secs or to keep me from saying **** it i am in prison so might as well and not drink anything for 4 days until blood turns to sludge and heart gives out from over working Can you get into Day treatment?
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thank u for trying to help
1 the charge they are going after me for is major enough to no allow me to ever legally work in that field under the federal rules .....i doubled checked if i get any distribution charge it is done for me ....if if it is not a felony ....unless the charges get dropped i have no chance .......and the charges are not getting dropped the wittness is a DEA vs my word .....i lost
2 nothing .......i applied more then 3 years ago they called me a druggie and a drunk said no...........some how the case was reopened in the last few weeks ...they wanted info i gave it all to them but since i did not know how to fill out the forms with what they were asking i put the date i was labeled bipolar those records are gone the 8 months in the mental ward with all that info on me is gone ........i have nothing to add into the case so if it fallows like last time they say no .........then got to see if a lawyer will take the case free (they collect if we win) and file appeal but that is 6 months to a year away
3 nope not yet .........they know i am not sleeping i told them that the blood is new it was only a small amount i only noticed it because it was red inside white stuff (nose drips down throat pollen and x-mas tree farm 1/4 mile away so i can not breath out of nose) ........i have 3 ulcers over the years
4 no not my family they know if i say i want nothing i mean it because i will feel horrible about not getting them something good ....the only gift i could come up with is a card and a promise to do something when they need me including over night babysitter for nephew /doggies........the kid i was going to let him drive my car in a field for like 20 mins he is 8 so that would be fun for him
5 no i live in farm lands on the foothills of the mountains ........i was nearly 200 miles away at ren fair when this happen the case is that county ...taxi ride to the closest city is 50 bucks that is 13 miles away
7 they have not worked .........i have beat 3 video games in the last week trying to stop it and get it out .........gone in the woods and chopped down a huge tree with a hatchet ....when to the shooting range and used all but 3 of my shell up (got to keep home safe first is a blank 2nd is rocksalt 3rd is explosive round)
8 i do not know i am medicaid they set limits on the help i am allowed for the whole life time i think i get 30 days in the hospital for mental issues after that the state has to approve anything else