Hello PaulaS: I'm sorry to read of your difficulties. I'm in my mid 60's now. And I also view my life as having been pretty-much meaningless. I guess the one good thing in my situation is, since I am older, I don't much care anymore. It is true, I think, that the longer one is alone & unemployed, the more difficult it becomes to get back into the mainstream. And, when one is saddled with depression, it makes the situation just that much more difficult.

Personally, I don't think there's anything wrong with accepting one has a meaningless life, if in fact one can truly accept it. It took me many years to accept that this was the way I was heading. Now that I'm there, there is a certain freedom that results from it. So I hope, if you really do view your life as meaningless & believe there is nothing you can do about it, that you can come to a place where you can feel okay about it.