Newtus: I know how you feel. At the moment I don't mind taking meds but I'm going to be seriously invested in finding a job after the holidays and my opinion will definitely change. My attention and perception is seriously altered on meds, and while that suits me now when I have nothing to do, it certainly will not work with responsibilities like a job or college.

I think you should make a decision, inform your doctors and therapists and stick with it. You should decide to take them and be serious and compliant or decide not to and go from there. I think taking them on and off isn't doing you any favours. You need to find stability and you'll have to adjust your lifestyle to find that either way.