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Originally Posted by anothercliché
Sort of, mostly. The name refers to me being just a copy of a standard archetype, the "misunderstood young adult". I don't feel unique or special because I've met dozens of people just like me, or rather with the same internal categorization as me. They all are seemingly smart people who test well but do poorly in academics, brilliant but lazy, funny but sad, introverted but craving external approval, blah blah blah... after a while I stopped feeling like the positives applied to me. I'm not funny despite making people laugh. I'm not brilliant, hell I'm not even smart, I just know what my intellectual limits are and I generally (though as showcased above not always) don't speak of things I know nothing about and I am willing to admit I am ignorant to much of the world, which makes people think I'm clever despite simply making me a grounded moron. People say I'm special all the time but I don't feel I've earned it, I don't feel like I'm special, I've accomplished nothing to warrant it.
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There was some philosopher who said something like, I'm only smarter than others because at least I know I'm not smart. It may have been Socrates. I guess everyone is a cliche. Don't you think? Can you bear that? Is it OK to be as ordinary as everyone else? I remember once thinking, is this it? Is this all there is to my life? This is going to be a pretty boring life. I think that's the stage you go through right before you start the journey to find your stride, to find your grove. Anyhow, I like your thoughts. What did you think about my body dismorphia reply to the "I might be simple" thread?
Anyhow, I'll stop trying to argue that you're probably cool and special. (Even though you're pretty good at arguing that you're not, which is special in itself.) But I was wondering, what do you want to be like? Have you ever met or read about someone who had the characteristics you would like to have?
Have you ever done anything you felt a little bit of pride about? Is there any small thing that you could accomplish that you would consider a success? And for goodness sake, what's your major? How did you choose it? I hope it's something that will allow you to use your skills and gifts. (I know, I know, you don't have any skills and gifts.)
If I was doing therapy and you were my client, I suspect that I would look forward to our discussions. (Yes, I know, they would be terribly cliche, but I would enjoy them anyhow.)
