Hi,

Welcome to the SI forum. Boy that's a weird way to start this message.

When I get in a place when I can't trust myself to take good care of myself, I know that my thinking is messed up. After a lot of work and a lot of time, I've learned to let go and let the people I trust take care of me and even make decisions for me about how badly I've hurt myself. When I'm thinking well, I get scared because it's so easy to hurt myself more badly than I thought I would. I trust that my pdoc and therapist really care about me and want to help.

It's interesting how you feel about DBT. I used to feel that way about EMDR. A few different people had suggested it to me because it seems to really help with trauma. I would SI when reality started to get weird and I would start to feel more and more numb and disconnected. SI would bring everything back to normal and everything would feel real again. Anyhow, things weren't getting better and I finally decided to try EMDR. I guess I was embarrassed to admit I was scared of EMDR. Thing is, it's worked pretty well for me.