Let me start of by say I don't know what I can and can not say on this forum, and if I am inappropriate then let me know and remove my post but please don't ban me from forums, that is why I rarely respond to other post. First off I have no professional or personal support. I don't know where to began as I have a very large fear of therapist, psychologist, psychiatrist, and any other MI professional, as a child i had a therapist do bad things to me. Also I am deathly afraid of psych ward it took everything in my body and mind to go visit a close friend of my in a psych ward 5 times for 3-4 hours. She has since abandoned me she said she would come to the hospital with me while I had a procedure done but at the last minute cancel and never talked to me again. sorry rambling. My fear goes much deeper then what happened to me as a child I fear the the therapist, psychologist, psychiatrist, will twist my words around and try to commit me, paranoia I know. I want to get help I am trying to get into this DBT group but there require an outside referral from a therapist, psychologist, psychiatrist before I can start the group. I sort feel comfortable with just the group it more like a class then a open talk session. I don't know if I can overcome these fears. Any advise would be appreciated I will read and think about everything you all have to say to me but don't be surprised/upset if I come back with a counter issue positive/negative. This it about 1/100000000 of my feelings and emotions I could write hundred-thousand more words but I don't want to bore you or push you away.