Just exhausted beyond belief......... gave in and had to go back to the doctors. Back on more medication(which I hate btw) and if not better soon, then chest xrays.

Being sick turns me into an impatient horrible mummy, with no energy or motivation. And it makes it far harder to manage myself emotionally. More memories and dissociation and yuk in therapy yesterday.

Is there a cave I can crawl into somewhere, where I can feel safe and someone else will take care of me and pamper me and I can get better without having to face my life?

(too much to ask right)