The recording of your voice advice given above is a great idea!

I go through many of the similar feelings you do. Hospitalization has never been needed for me but there are times when my anger is out of control and I yell things at my kids I feel awful about. There have been so many times that I have wished I had never had children. I fear every day that my behavior has messed them up. In reality they are 15 and 13 and are great kids, great grades, and stay out of any trouble.

Being a mom is soooo difficult and even more difficult when you add in bp. Is your sister's house a safe/good house for your son to be in when you are hospitalized?

As for the teeth- my daughter has taken meticulous care of her teeth and had more cavities than I can count and also had to have her teeth bonded due to dis-coloring. My son on the other hand has lousy dental hygine and has had no cavities. Go figure.