<font color="green"> </font> Ofcourse I'm getting help,I don't like those thoughts in my head. Would you? That's why I'm taking anti-psychotic medication! Plus,I stopped cutting 7 years ago,I've been stable for that long with my meds. Even though I get these bad thoughts,I do care more about other people,and thats why I used to hurt myself instead,because I didn't want to hurt anyone else! But sometimes the urges just get really strong and they really bother me,and I have to make that decision,and it's hard because I don't want to do either anymore,hurt myself or anyone else!