Thank you CapedCrusader...

I thought about what you wrote last night a bit. Family is important, but i don't think it's the life for me. I've spent years trying to help family members but all I've ever gotten was the loose end of the stick.

Last night i sat here struggling to understand if everything going on around me was real or not. All the betrayal, all the distrust.

Just yesterday the girl i mentioned has excluded and taken me out of her social circles.

Today she even approached me about not contacting her, telling me that she doesn't even want to be my friend, and i stood there in complete apathy. Not a single care.

I'm not thinking about things too much. I'm thinking i'm going to take the opportunity and jump cities.

I'm thinking about getting meds for myself and giving them a try, but i'm skeptical, i don't think they'll help.