I've been working on my creative writing and getting some positive feedback from people. That makes me feel better. It helps me with my feelings and depression, though I don't know why. I prefer being creative to my actual work - but I prefer eating to not eating. My headaches have returned in force. I feel like they're draining my capability to think and function. I feel like I have the worse of everything starting: massive headaches, horrible ADHD, and the edge of a dark depressive spiral. The writing helps, but sometimes I don't know. I want to run away from it all, but I know running won't help.