I have not discussed it with my T and am not sure I have erotic transference too much toward him. I have come to see him as attractive, but I didn't the first times we met. He has grown on me. (Unfortunately, I obtained a super hot pic of him as a young man--long story--and he was a hottie-super-stud looking kind of guy back then, and I did go through a phase where I looked at that pic quite a bit. It's like I look at that pic and think Holy F**k and have to put it away--too hot to handle. I don't go there anymore. I like T his current age just fine.)

There was a month between the very first and second times I met with my T, and I was very busy during this time and had little time to think about my new therapy. Then the night before our second meeting, I had this dream about him (remember I'd only met him once, a whole month before), and we were together in his office, the lights dimmed, sitting on his couch side by side, and he had his arms around me from behind, kind of like spooning. He was holding and comforting me. I felt totally deviant for having had this dream. I'd only met the guy once, and here my unconscious was diving head first into a strong attachment to him, manufacturing taboo images of therapist and client touching. It really freaked me out! I never told him this dream (we scarcely knew each other), but it really sticks in my head. I don't think it was sexual, but I would have felt embarrassed as hell to tell him about it.