I saw the doctor today. She was a locum. Quite nice. She referred me back to CMHT which should help. Losing hope though.

Also spoke to a manager. "You can't have your cake and eat it" is what she said. Horrible. But surely putting me on a 6.5hr contract so they don't have to give me many hours and then expecting expecting me to immediately work 35 because they want me too is actually them having their cake and eating it?

In the end I've got my hours set to 15 weekly maximum. But I still want to leave. I just can't stand it there. But everyone wants me to stay. I just cant. I dread waking up and being faced with that place.