At my last appointment, my T and I spent time talking about boundaries and how it's not my responsibility to maintain them. I'm supposed to be allowed to ask for or want anything, and it's her job to help me examine why and what those longings mean. It doesn't mean they will all be fulfilled (which is obvious), but all can be talked about. And I don't know whether I want to. I don't want to talk about some of that stuff. It makes me feel selfish and ungrateful and bad, for some reason. I don't want to discuss what I know I can't have, because it's easier to just push it away and pretend it's not so important. Someone remind me why I have to deal with some of this again? How in the world does it relate to trauma, depression, or anxiety? I don't know whether it's worth it to deal with this stuff. It's one thing to talk about the past, or to talk about the present. But I don't ever talk about the things I want, because it feels selfish and bad to want things I can't get on my own.

Any words of advice?