Sorry Steiner that you are out of sorts with your emotions.

Sometimes I see friends laughing and it seems to be covering other emotions that they can't find a way to express.

Maybe your dad would tell you how he felt about the goat dying. Can you try bringing the subject up? You could even volunteer that you felt your emotions were inappropriate.

If your dad is not the talking type, do you have a t that you can talk to or an aunt or uncle or grandmother that is very accepting?

Displaying appropriate emotions is a learned skill. If we don't learn it when we are growing up then it must be learned as adults.

It seems more like you have not learned these skills or there may be deeper hurts that the laughing is covering. Sometimes talking to people honestly can produce unexpected results.