I ended things with my boyfriend a week ago. I cried while we were on the phone the night it happened. And that has been it. Most of the time, I feel perfectly normal - like nothing is even different. I get sad sometimes when I think about it, but this is nothing like I imagined. I know there is no right reaction to have, I just expected to feel something else, something more intense. Maybe I am just numb still, but I know that I cannot fully understand what it is that I need and want until I get over this. It scares me because my reaction, or lack thereof, makes me question my entire relationship. I definitely pulled away from the relationship a few weeks prior to the actual break up, so maybe I began healing then? I'm a strong person, I've dealt with a lot tough emotional situations in my past. I just feel cold now. I'm trying to stay busy - I've spent a lot of time with my family and a few girlfriends. When it first happened, it was hard to believe that we weren't together anymore. The 2 following days it was almost like I felt relief or like that feeling you get when you take a really deep breath. I feel calm. Stressed out but still calm. I even feel liberated and part of me feels proud. I know this is all over the place I just don't know what to do to get in touch with how I am really feeling or maybe it's just because I didn't ever feel much at all.