I feel absolutely destroyed. I don't want to see her ever again and at the same time, I never want to be away from her. I want her to hug me and take it all back. Tell me I can be her daughter. I don't want to get out of bed ever again. I don't know why this hurts so much but I just can't escape it. I've been crying on and off all day and I want to call her and tell her I need help and can't function but I don't want to annoy her and I don't even know what she can do besides break me even further