I think raising kids would be quite a job...but yeah I know for SSDI you have to have worked a certain amount to qualify, but with SSI which I have that is not the case so maybe worth looking more into. But yeah that is kind of how it is with me not knowing how I will feel...on some days I do feel more functional and probably could work a 'job' on those days, trouble is next day I could be very on edge being dragged into a pit of depression. Much of the time stress can bring on those symptoms too but sometimes things can be seeming to go ok and it more seems to come out of the blue. It was kind of hard getting on disability and I had to appeal because it was difficult to explain that while I can function well enough for work at times its too inconsistent and I wouldn't be able to handle the regular exposure to work stress let alone if something unexpected came up...without some sort of breakdown or falling into the despair or suicidal ideation and functioning progressively worse and worse.