Manadla

He is aware of my past, that's why I walk away, he does apologize but I guess he doesn't completely understand it. He would never direct it at me, and become violent with me, I know that .... I have pissed him off from time to time but he also pisses me off. When he is mad he is silent, bottles stuff up and I know one day he'll erupt, i know though that it wont be me he takes it out on because the anger I didn't cause.

With his behaviour i've told him that he is making me anxious an triggered.....I don't know what he's said .. cannot remember because it is rare. But you are right if he wants to get mad he has to make sure i'm not around. But he wont know it bothers me unless I've told him.

Silence does bother me especially if it's me that caused the tension and try to talk about it but he doesn't talk to me at all.....so eventually I just got up and left.

On saturday he made a plan to go for a hike, knew I couldn't go because of proper shoes i didn't have for the weather but it bothered me because I felt excluded from it. Hurt my feelings.

But anyways things are better now.

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<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

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