Tomorrow I see the pdoc that will make my first Med change and "final" Dx. I have to explain Med issues, Ana being back, the panic (scatteredness) of shoping and the feeling that if I don't hurt myself soon I feel something bad will happen. I'm hoping s/he will read my whole file (200+ pages) . I know I have to tell him/her I have no sex drive and apathetic on the zyprexa. I'm hoping that proving to my ED I'm not gaining weightl ANA will stop screaming at me. Anything you can think of? I haven't seen a pdoc in 4.5 months. T keeps implying my file says SzA:BP. Hopefully s/he is willing to work with my ED restrictions. I'm so scared. So very scared. :'(