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Originally Posted by growlithing
I feel absolutely destroyed. I don't want to see her ever again and at the same time, I never want to be away from her. I want her to hug me and take it all back. Tell me I can be her daughter. I don't want to get out of bed ever again. I don't know why this hurts so much but I just can't escape it. I've been crying on and off all day and I want to call her and tell her I need help and can't function but I don't want to annoy her and I don't even know what she can do besides break me even further
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I really am sorry this is soo painful, it is understandable thought hat you feel as you do.
Like others have said, as hard as it is this is good, because it is getting you to look at and feel the pain perhaps of not having your Mum. It gives you the opportunity to finally experience it and grieve as you deserve to.
I would say that your lcm has done THE kindest and most compassionate thing by putting her feelings about your relationship aside to allow you to follow your journey of grieving......for this will be your way through the pain, perhaps?
Could it be that this is an act of 'love' from your lcm, rather than how you are currently seeing it?
Please take care and reach out and allow her to support you further.
(edit: oops hadn't read the above messages, glad you texted)