Well, they are a nasty piece of work and I talk about them on other web-forums too, like Wrong Planet. But lately, nobody has been responding to my posts, much. I get that my typing style is a bit long and the posts play off like a tangent, but I cannot really snip out little bits of important info, because then it makes explaining the story a little bit harder.

Anyway, I doubt I will be able to get over losing those two support workers because this bugs me now on a daily basis. Before they screwed me over, I had never been in jail.

I had good intentions before; I have good intentions now as well. Now the darn company are saying they cannot help me any more because I quit my support and they are not contracted to help me. It is all BS. They know my sentencing date is coming up, so they are just kicking back to see what will happen.

This guy angered me a few weeks ago. I had asked him to hand me mail near the street where the supported housing is, since I am legally no longer permitted onto the street and they threaten to grass me up to the pigs should I set foot there, but my online purchases go to that address due to my bank card being assigned there. Furthermore, they use the non-harassment orders as a scapegoat now not to bring back my aides. They probably don't want to work with me again anyway. They sent some less than stellar emails to the company's assistant director before, noting all the incidents that made them uncomfortable, yet I just saw a lot of the early issues as being minor mistakes. Example: I asked one of them out one time. It occurred well over a year ago, but there was no need for these two to run roughshod over me just over that!

The thing is, the higher-ups (who we refer to as "Seniors" where I stayed before), are not even attending court next Friday to have my best interests at heart. One of the seniors went before I got remanded, now they are leaving me flat and taken zero interest in my fate. They basically caused this mess. So I get that I had made bad choices along the way, but they lied initially over my former key worker, who I had developed a boyish crush on. Perhaps they thought they did the right thing by removing her, but it still was not right that it happened in the manner that it did. They lied, after all. We could have had a discussion to clear the air. Her attitude in later months stunk too, and all I wanted was to redeem myself. And, I naturally find it quite disturbing how people who enter my life that start off all nice and comforting, eventually end up being venomous and cruel. It has lowered my self-esteem quite badly and I am agoraphobic now.

There are a lot of people in this world who are vastly insensitive, selfish and too caught up in their own pathetic affairs to bother helping those in peril. They would be amongst those type of people, in my eyes. To say I was shafted by the very agency I loved once would be an understatement.