Well, I did it. I have her back the letter and tried to tell her my feelings surrounding this whole matter, but it ask ended up a **** show. We talked about how I don't want to be expressing any type of attachment to her, and how the letter was a form or perhaps a symbol of connection between the two of us that I am unwilling at this point to accept. She was trying so hard to talk me out of my understanding of the situation, and tell me that my wants and needs were ok to have, but I couldn't stop thinking about how I could want all day long but the truth of the matter is I'm just **** out of luck and the dinner I accept that the better for everyone. I handed her the note, and I stormed out. I'm not even sure I said goodbye. One part of me feels really bad, the other part says screw her! I'm canceling my appointment for next week which will mean we won't meet until after the holidays. I think that's best.