She responded to me. Called me and talked. She wanted me to go out and meet new people. It didn't happen but I did calm down. She seemed a little stressed by it because I was talking about cutting and passive sui thoughts (for reasons greater than this) and my thoughts were scattered and I was crying. She listened to me talk about the urges and what I'd be hoping to accomplish with them. She pointed out that all of my reasoning for these behaviors and against the constructive ones she suggested were greatly flawed. She said she cares still regardless of what the relationship is defined as. She said she didn't abandon me but that she did damage the fantasy. The good part of our relationship, according to her, is the stuff that is real. The fact that in this reality she loves me and cares for me. Then she got me playing and talking about pokemon and I calmed down.