I'm sorry to hear this,LL. Maybe find things that give you comfort for awhile. You don't need to make any sweeping decisions at the moment. Every day gives you another opportunity to choose your direction. Maybe something to think about is the perspective that trust is or isn't. That you can or can't. Maybe it can be somewhere in the middle, flexible enough to meet your needs at the moment. That way, you can also be in control of the process enough to benefit, maybe with this T or maybe with another at another time.