There are times I could end it all at the blink of an eye. Than, like this morning, there are moments filled with such comfort.
The comfort is, me walking around town on a crisp winters morning, with the hustle and bustle of Xmas shoppers around me and I think of T, imagine seeing her as I walk along, feel that sense of the 'we' that has been built over the years with her.

I compare that to the nothing I had with my step mother, no warmth, no comfort to be had from that relationship. And, believe me, a relationship has to be a genuine one or else I can smell BS a mile away, this stuff cannot be faked.

I compare the 2, lift my shoulders as I walk, feeling content again. Thinking of all the moments T has said something to me that hits my heart. Think myself lucky to finally have that experience, that those who were fortunate enough to have got it through out - life can take for granted.

It's all an inside job!