These last few months have been hell. I initiated a separation from my wife of 8 years and have been suffering from what I thought was depression for 7 years.
Two weeks ago I had a breakdown and suicide attempt and was diagnosed with bipolar I disorder. Started new meds (300mg Seroquel, 50mg Lamictal, 0.5mg Klonopin) and I feel amazing for most of the day. The only issue is the evenings where the meds are wearing off before the next dose. Last night, I put the kids to bed around 8pm and took my Seroquel. The next few hours were so lonely and sad it felt impossible not to think dark thoughts. I would browse the web looking at Pinterest for positive messages but my mind would eventually lead me to the more depressing images (of which there are plenty to choose from .... Thanks Pinterest!).
How do other suffers busy themselves during these brief but all to frequent dark periods in their lives??? In the past I would grabbed a beer or ten but I'm also trying sobriety at the moment so that's not an option, and to be honest alcohol just makes me feel worse for the following few days.
I'd love to hear your thoughts.
Cjb x