Kim, its hard for women to admit to anyone they have fantasies let alone fetishes. I know b/c I have one about sinking in quicksand. Its so cliche and male-dominated in the fetish arena (online sex forums etc) that I want to scream at myself. But honestly it's natural for someone to engage in fantasy especially near orgasm. It has to be as old as the homo sapiens mind.

Its easier said than done but try not to allow this to affect your self confidence.If you havent acted out in public by now you probably wont and so can trust yourself in that regard. I like to rationalize that people who are sexually active and have active fantasies are more intelligent than the general population. Kind of like the people who post on PsychCentral!