12 or 13 years now (?) and Im going to say all the politically incorrect things here: in 12 years Ive gotten fat and ugly and old and although I stopped having sex purposefully because I was having risky encounters with dodgy partners, I now wallow in self pity, a la "no one would want me anyway.." This is something I should explore in therapy but I've got lots of issues going on and don't think my current T is up for it.

Anyway, last PC incorrect statement of the day that others can feel free to smash: Sex with others is better than self sex. Personally I miss the intoxication of touching someone else.