yup... i'm fairly sure.
:-)

i got a phonecall from an unknown number on my cell on tuesday, but i didn't have any credit on my phone so i couldn't check my message.

when i was waiting at the bus stop this morning (to go to therapy) i finally put some credit on my phone and checked my message. he had left a reeeeeeeeally looooooooong message on tuesday responding to a couple emails i sent him after our last (nasty) session.

:-)

we had a pretty good session today. figured out that we weren't really disagreeing... talked a bit about what it would mean for him to meet them... sounds like neither of us are very sure... said i found that stuff on the EP and ANP and were they the people who he said were the 'holland research group' and he was like 'yeah'. talked to him about the pain. kind of episodes i have. episodes where the pain is real bad and i can't go to work / function. i felt it a little. he talked about trying to reorient myself by refocusing my attention on the present moment and how things are externally okay in the present moment. really hard to hold both it in my mind that the pain is understandable and okay AND that it is a response to the past and not the present moment both at the same time. talked a bit about how we have to go slow 'cause i need to function well. problems with the trade-off of getting better as fast as possible and being able to function to do my work.

we meet every friday and every second tuesday. he said that he thinks he can offer me an extra tuesday session, though. so that will give us a nice run of three weeks with twice weekly sessions :-)

i wuv my t again

:-)