Hi silentangel, I'm sorry you're having such a hard time
Is it possible to trust that person in certain areas but less so in other areas??? Or maybe adjust your expectations of that person until they've clearly shown you that you can trust them??? Maybe invest a little less of yourself in that person for now???
I'd say that the main focus should be on trying to protect yourself from being hurt though, and if you have suspicions that maybe...........then perhaps find some ways (with or without them) to make that less likely, prepare yourself more for it, or plan what you'd do if that maybe does come true???
Hopefully we can help you with some tools on here though up until (and after!!) your counseling visit
And if you want to talk more.................
Alison