Hi AsiaBlue...

I think I have attachment issues (it would make sense with my background, and when I took the online test, I got the "come here - go away!" type... disorganized, I think?) I've given T a copy of the test results, but we haven't talked about it. I don't think he realizes how it is for me at this point, like how I want to quit after every other session

I still feel like we're figuring it out (I've been seeing this T for about 6 months). I'm sure at the beginning he said something about calling him if I needed anything, but I don't - ever. We also haven't really started on any trauma type work yet (and I don't have a formal CPTSD diagnosis, though these days I don't really know which diagnosis-bucket I fall into!)

I do want to say, I relate... I get jealous of people with Ts that emphasize that it's ok to reach out during the week. That sounds SO caring and kind to me, it makes me want to cry. Not just people here, but if you've read any of the "Tales of a Boundary Ninja" blog that gets posted here from time to time - she said that her T really emphasized that's ok, normal, expected for her to call - even if just to make sure he was still there, since he was an "attachment figure".

My T doesn't seem like that.

I don't know, I guess this doesn't help. I think you've been doing therapy for awhile, right? Do you think it's more about the trauma itself (i.e. overwhelmed by trauma stuff and need somebody to help with that) or more about the attachment (like the woman from the blog, needed to know that your "attachment figure" is still there, and still cares?)