I'm so glad I'm not the only one!

Echos, I may ask about bringing my writing in and reading it aloud in person. As painful as it is to write, at least I can say what I need to say.

licketysplit, I can understand the uncertainty about whether it's more about the T or just you leaning in to the process more. I have wondered if it's a compatibility thing with T, too, since I have friends I can open up without freezing up. However, I think part of my difficulty may simply come from the therapeutic relationship. I am uncomfortable being the only one unburdening myself. I feel needy and embarrassed, and a little selfish and guilty for even having needs. I'm scared she will judge or resent me so I freeze up and shut down.

Maybe I could relax more with another T, but I think for now I just need to push through the painful parts and see how it goes before making any moves so I'll know I've given it a fair chance.