I trained to be a human rights lawyer, however my partner of several years was diagnosed with Cancer, so I gave it up to take care of him, until he passed away.

After that and grieving for a long time, I went into finance, as I couldnt find a law job anymore. I met a lovely guy shortly after and in doing so life seemed fine.

A good job was mine again in a firm I liked, with a man I loved. However recently that's all seemed to have fallen apart again.

My work place has become a place of stress, since a new employee started who drives me up the wall and my partner finally decided to end our relationship about 36 hours ago, saying he didnt love me anymore as it was just too hard to love me with my constant arguments and telling him how he failed me.

Only over the last few months have i slowly been coming to the realisation that my partner was not an awful person and that the problem may well be with myself, so I signed up for counselling without telling him. (he has slight issues with mental health concerns and I didn't want him to think I was crazy). Alas I never got the chance to improve, as my counseling sessions don't start til the new year.

So at the moment I feel somewhat dejected and low. Hoping that I can turn this rejection into a positive and learn how to adapt myself, so that I don't push those I love away.