So my husband and I were having issues and we decided to seek marriage counseling. I found a young intern who was male and was only a couple of miles from our house. It was perfect, the only bad thing was he didn't take insurance, but I was willing to overlook that because my husband and I both really liked him.

Fast forward 5 months and now we have stopped marriage counseling although he says he is there for "check-ins". We had agreed that he would be my individual ONCE we were DONE with marriage counseling so there was no conflict of interest. We had an appt set up and everything so we could start individual. Then unfortunately my husband and I had a really big fight and we decided to not stop the marriage counseling yet and to just hold off on individual. My current T didn't want me to wait on the individual stuff so he had me start seeing a woman in the same practice (this is a very small team). I told him I felt awkward about the situation because they were friends, worked in the same practice and if I didn't like her it would be awkward. He said it wouldn't hurt their feelings as they are trained for that. I reluctantly said yes as I felt so much pressure to see her from all sides.

A month went by and we never did see him about the fight my hubby and I had so I told him to forget about the marriage counseling as he didn't even see us for the fight anyway. After seeing the woman T 3 times I noticed I was not making a connection so I told him that I would prefer, if like we ORIGINALLY discussed, he could be my individual T. Of course I would terminate the marriage counseling so again, there would be no conflict of interest. I really like the woman T too, she is so sweet, but I just wasn't connecting. He said he just had to ask his supervisor first. While waiting for a response I had a miscarriage and was having anxiety from the abuse/rape that I went through so I wrote him an emailing saying what had happened.

Well today he called me to "check-in" on me and after "checking-in" drops a huge bomb on me. "My supervisor said no, I'm sorry"....I don't get it? So first they say yes and now its no? I didn't even get a freaking reason other than "its not a good idea she says"...why ? I'm not doing marriage counseling with him anymore?

I can't believe that I finally have someone I trust and that I think can help me through a horrendous trauma and I can't even PAY them to help me. I must be so unlikable that I can't even pay another human being to pretend to care......

Edit: Thank you everyone for your responses, they made me feel better. I see now that it wasn't his fault, there was nothing he could do as he is just an intern there and he has a boss. He even explained that if it was his own practice he would, but I was so upset I didn't listen when he tried to comfort me. This is my first therapy experience and I am just scared I guess. I found someone that made me feel safe and it was ripped away, its just hard and very confusing.