Ok- I need my PC friends to help me to decide if an email to my T is good right now.

T contacted husband this week because he was concerned for my safety. He did so because my depression has been bad, suicidal ideation getting worse, and been dealing with a stressful situation with my work and with my son's school. He felt like that my words and promises, the check ins we were doing weren't enough to ensure my safety. However, he told my husband he didn't think inpatient at this point was the answer.

The overall feeling I get from this is that I am too much for him to handle by himself, that he can't trust my words, and that maybe the emails, and extra sessions were just too much for T. Maybe, this is his way to say I need to start relying on other people and not just him. I get this overwhelming fear that he is beginning to see that I require a lot out of the supportive people in my life and it is too much for him. I really want to email to these feelings and concerns because I can't stop obsessing over them. However, what if I am contacting him too much? is another email a good thing? If he does get my email this weekend, he will probably not respond in depth to it anyways and will wait until our next session to talk about it. I see him on Tuesday, so it is not as though I have to wait that long to talk to him anyways..

I just feel like I may be on the verge of pushing T overboard and I don't want to do that, but I do want to get these feelings out of my head and him to hear them. WWYD?