I posted something similar in the BPD forum, but didn't get many replies so I am gathering people can't relate. I don't know whether anyone here relates either but I thought I would just ask. I just want to find where I belong.

Anyway the thing is I find that I have like two worlds that I go between. I suppose you could say that one is real and one is not. The thing is though, all the people are the same in both worlds they just have different roles. I talk to them and they talk back,I get so caught up in this other world though that I spent hours in it and when I come out I realize I have wasted so much time. It is also hard to distinguish what interactions and conversations I had in which world- I can get them all confused and go to talk to someone about something that didn't happen here it was in the other world. I find that it is isolating because I feel like I have friends and everything feels so real, but really I don't.

It makes me sad and confused when I get told what I think is real is in fact not real. The world outside this other world seems so scary, nowhere is safe cause there is always somebody watching.

Does anyone relate to this or had a similar experience?