Today was a busy day for me, but was alone. Did not spend time with anyone except some small chit chat. They were OK. I was feeling pretty good throughout the whole day.

I felt bad, though, that my friend invited to come to church around noon to help move furniture around to set up for tomorrow. I didn't want to do it. He said that we'd have lunch together after that. I felt like it would have been a late lunch for me and I had shopping ahead for me. So I ended up totally alone instead of getting together with a good friend due to my decision. But getting together today would have been work for me with moving furniture and lots of driving. I didn't feel like it.

By the end of the afternoon (which is right now) I felt like I've come to a nosedive emotionally. I got a message from a good friend saying that his colonoscopy did not go well. It didn't happen because he did not "prep" well for it. I think that there could be something wrong with him. His father had colon cancer, but later died of Alzheimer's. And now I'm feeling like my health anxiety has just come and hit me hard.