Do you feel you can be honest about your symptoms, but assure him you are not going to do anything over the holidays (that is, if you can make that assurance)? I have to be honest. I have no choice but I want to trust him first. More over he has to trust me and my word. I am already being held to my word that I'll properly take my meds until I see him next.

Could your therapist get that moved up if you tell him what's going on and that you want to stay out of the hospital? He can only see me 1x a week. I am on his no show list forever.