Hello & Welcome, Ashleycw87.

Wow.

Given all that has happened and is happening to you, it's no wonder you are depressed, anxious and more.

Did the police/constabulary ever investigate the abuse?

Is there anyone near you - friend, social worker, clergy, etc. - who could offer practical help to you in accomplishing what is necessary for you to be reunited with your husband?

Republic of South Africa Department of Social Development - Services???
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