Hi gayman. I am so sorry that you are struggling...it would seem to me that if you are that worried about it that you are not but I am not an expert. Have you tried talking to a counselor? Pedophilia is a serious thing and you are so young that it is sad to me that you are so concerned...I think it is normal for a young man to have those physical things going on everyday...I have a son that age and he tells his Dad and me that that happens and that could just be a normal thing but it is good to ask if you are concerned....hope this helps....in any case I would ask a professional...