I lost my best friend of 8 years to a stupid boy who has isolated her from EVERYONE for one year. She deleted everyone online and I have not really talked with her since last year because he is always there taking her away... 8 YEARS. How does someone do that???

I don't know why but every night she is in my nightmares and I'm losing it a bit inside. I just feel like i've lost her like she died.. but i'm so glad she is not dead because I still care about her even though I am so angry with her...

8 years....

So much happens in that time.. Actually typing this is making me cry about it for the first time. I guess I didn't realize how upset I am..

I'm taking a moment to breathe..

She's all I write about. And everyone jokes about us being exfriends and I just can't even comprehend.. when I really think about it I feel like im going into shock. How can one boy take her from the world? 8 years of trust and shes just gone like that? Who does that?

.. I have to be honest..

One time a couple years ago she almost did this.. leave me.. and that night I thought I was losing her I kept thinking about dying.. and a lot of stuff happened that night at a new years party but luckily we worked things out then.. but there wasn't anyone between us.

I'm not like that anymore.

But when she first left me for this guy I had no one. Luckily I have other friends now. But its not till now that its really hitting me. He didn't like me and he took her away from me.. I just wanna punch him in the face. When I see them (they come order food at my workplace) I just want to tackle them or scream.

One time she came and he ordered from me and all I could literally say over and over was "why?"