You both have nailed it on the head in one way or another.

My flashbacks trigger INTENSE SHAME for my past behaviours towards men. Having never been in a romantic relationship up till that point in my life (yes I am a late bloomer) I was like a fish out of water not know whether I should swim or just drown.

When I have these INTENSE FLASHBACKS I do feel an ENORMOUS amount of shame. I tense up....have auditory hilucinations (that I know aren't real at all) that ppl are talking about me.........which then causing me to isolate myself.....or contemplate talking an extra sedative.

How do I forgive myself and move on?